To many times people are looking for an escape (distraction) to keep them away from truly going inside themselves to find the answer. Everything is a process whether you know it, or now.
Everything takes time - one step at a time. You can do it. You will make it out alive. Give yourself time to grieve, to be sad, to mourn, but in the end it should (will) lead you into a praise.
Gratitude at it’s best!